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I don't know

and my last post brings me to this one.... The beginning of this I started dating someone, it started off I guess kinda predictable, I liked him he reciprocated my feelings and we started going out. He is my first real boyfriend. And let me tell...

Friends With Benefits

So I'm in a really weird place right now. I'm single. It's been about a month since I broke up with my partner of 14 months. Lately I've reconnected with my best friend Julian who was ignored a lot during my relationship as my partner forbidded me...

"B"

He hasn't call me all day, it's not the first time this has happened. Today is just different, I feel a way about him not calling me. Yesterday he came over and we talked.I thought we made some progress when I told him if he doesn't call then I am...

what am I doing..

Seriously... shoot me. There is this guy I am with and while I like him a lot. I mostly just keep him around as something to do! My parents hate him with a buring passion and if they found out we talked or hung out they qould most certainly kill me....

Happy thoughts trigger my hell.

So things have started to go down hill again. I've had a panic attack today and been sick twice. Basically I'm going on holiday to Africa tomorrow and I was so excited and it's going to be amazing (typical! happy thoughts seem to trigger my parnoia...

Saint George

Hello people! sorry I disapeared for a few days. I went to Saint George to celebrate my great Grandma's 90th birthday, she got to ride a motorcycle. I also got to see my best cousin (and oldest friend) and his girlfriend, she was in Cedar and we...

Words I never said…

Today april 13 2:25am I finally replied back to him. I wish I would have just told him everything when it happened, and didn't wait 2 months to reply. I really hate myself for doing that. Now I have no idea how he's going to respond. I'm 100% sure he...

Virginity

Virginity, to lose or not to lose. That is the question. How do we know when the time is right to lose our virginity, and how do we know who to actually lose it with? As a teenager, losing your virginity is a very confusing thing. You want it to be...

For my children

In light of my previous health glitches, I thought abut this site at Thoughts. Here lies my life and various events written within. I mean, my life and some of my “magic moments” are written here and shared. What better way for my children to get to...

Friends Of Friends

So my "friend" Courtney was reportedly bitching about me, excellent. I can accept that, girls bitch, it's cool, but then she decides to confront ME about it when she was the one that was bitching! I was like "dafuq?"  Anyway, who cares, right?  ...

Boys

God damn it, why can't I be friends with a guy without them falling for me. All I did was invite James over, I mean, all I wanted was to hang out as FRIENDS. My best friend Julian even likes me. I can't escape it. But surprise surprise the person...

amigo-ship

She knows better. He has a girlfriend in another part of the world, and for her there is no attraction. So why does she let him put his arm around her? Why does she let him come closer?  She tells him, " The lines of our friendship cannot be...

Life With Boys (There are some cuss words in this)

How would you feel if you liked someone, who is like your best friend, but they only see you as a friend? Well, it happens to me everyday. I like this boy. And I see him alot, but he doesnt like me. He and I are like best friends. But I really like...

Downsiders

I've been seeing all the downsiders here on Thoughts, I won't call them anas, or cutters, I'll just call them Downsiders. I'd just like to blantantly point out the fact that most of these Downsiders here have avatar pics of themselves, and they're...

when you cant speak your mind.. write it.

i think im afraid to be happy because of whenever i do, something bad always happens. i will be strong for now coz things will get better. it may be stormy now, but it cant rain forever. its funny how that one person who makes you feel the happiest...

My Day, My Life.

Im just like any other teenage girl. I have a messy room, messy hair sometimes, and Im crazy about that one boy. The twist? Yup, theres always a twist. He is my gay best friend. Yup. Hes gay. I just wish I had taken my chance when I had it. Like they...

What Your Kiss Does To Me

I still remember the first time you kissed me. We were sitting on my couch watching a movie, and my roommate had just gone to bed. That one kiss turned into a make out session. I went away for a month, but when I came back you still felt the same way...

Few and far from in between thinking positive

I need guidance. I like philosophy. I like music. I like everything about both. From creating my own theories from the situations I live to composing a song. I discuss my friend's little theories and record some of the projects I do ( music and wat...

But.

And you broke my heart tonight my dear, you burned down my plans and dreams. This summer wasn't supposed to be about location, it was supposed to be about you and me. Being together, feeling your skin against mine, and your lips against my lips. And...

Ranttt lol

Why is it okay for people to make fun of skinny girls, but if anyone says anything about fat girls all hell breaks loose?! Really skinny girls can be jut as insecure as overweight girls! I'm 5'3", 16, and I wear a size 00 in jeans -___-. Don't you...

What a day.

  So he asked for another chance. My friends are all for us to get back together again. Should I go for it or not? I don't know. But I am really proud of myself! I have been almost a month clean froM self harm. I think track has helped me a lot. My...

I Just Don't Get You.

We've been talking for about 5 months now....we've hung out multiple times. You seem like youre interested, and I know I am....yet you pull this shit and go avoiding me? I just don't get you. I was told you were a nice guy, that was nothing like your...

I Miss You

I miss you. I miss us. I miss how things used to be between us. I wish you didn't feel like need to lie, and keep everything a secret. I know I told you I'd never be dumb enough to take you back, but then I turned around and said I'd be willing to...