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What ive learned about love

Ive learned that some people will tell you they love you. They will tell you how beautiful you are every single day and make you think your special every single night. They will send you cute goodnight/good morning texts. They will make you think...

Suffocation

Suffocation seems like such a hostile word. By the dictionary it means, "to deprive of oxygen." However in the abstract way that I'm talking about, it means "to overcome, extinguish; suppress." Clearly, I'm not saying that I'm directly lacking air....

Him

  I just don’t know what to do with HIM because I screwed it all up with my fear of getting emotionally ‘close to someone and now I want to respect the space that we have now, but at the same time I don’t want to and want to say hey I freaking like...

Hit and Miss

It was interesting...after yesterday morning of writing of how upset I was about everything with my ex, he sent me an email yesterday.  It still boggles my mind that he will do everything not to text me but he did contact me.   He sent me a...

She will love you more and more

How will you make her fall for you more and more and more? Most guys will never understand what girls really like, they will instantly think that we are high maintenance, that you already did everything but we're just so hard to please. What you don't...

When guys don't reply . . . advice wanted!

AARRRGHH!! Ever heard of this thing called text me the fuck back???????????? Well, apparantly Brutus has not. I texted him at 17:08 tonight and it's now 20:40 and there's nothing. NOTHING. Why did I text him, you may want to know? Well, I...

What I Want To Say To You

I wish i could tell you this in person or even over a text but honestly i dont want you to ignore me and i dont want to create drama. so instead im here to write how i feel, even though you will never read this i need to get it off my mind.  I just...

Why can't I take my own advice?

Have such a predicament right now and I know exactly what I would tell my friend's to do if it were them butI just can't seem to do it... For the past couple of blogs I've mentioned the MD from a show I done who started messaging me and in the last...

Deciding if the feelings are real.

So, I haven't written anything in a while and I want to write about the same things I used to write about, but in a different way.  I feel as though I have grown up a lot since I used to write about the guy.  I feel as though I had completely...

ATTENTION ALL: I would like everyone's input here...

"D day" might be coming for the guy I'm currently dating.  I've been feeling this way for quite some time now.  At first the feelings were dull and nagging, and I tried my hardest to think perhaps I'm being "too tough on him," and I shouldn't make a...

Dorian

This is a happier post. A few weeks ago, I was admitted into a mental health hospital for adolescents and adults. I was first in the outpatient program and had been there for about two months, and then got admitted inpatient. I remember my first...

F*** you, very very much

It’s a rather catchy song.  And the chorus fits my mood right now. Maybe I’m over reacting. Backstory: There’s this guy (cue the eye roll) I know here we go drama…..I hate it too. I started liking this guy fall 2013, this September we finally...

9 Days

That's how many days of my winter vacation I have left. Then I'll be in my second semester of school and I will have a second chance at being good. I will be good this year. I need to keep my grades up this semester if I'm going to be able to vacation...

Boys + Friends = Boyfriends?

Lots of girls, like me, find themselves surrounded by an amazing group of friends. These friends can be boys or girls, commonly both. Within that group there may be one boy in particular . . . it's great, you two have this fabulously fun friendship,...

Talk to Someone

When I'm feeling low I like to talk.  Talking is what makes me my happiest.  Even if I am not talking about anything inparticular I just feel content having a person to talk to.   Today was a pretty crapy day. I am not on my sisters' good side...

Bones Shaking

Alright, it took me a couple of days, but I think now I can tell you.    Monday morning, I text Carson that I didn't want him to come, that I knew he was going to lie to me anyway. He didn't respond back, which I also expected, but I'm happy...

Wipe your eyes and put up your head.

I had a meltdown at school yesterday, my mentor wasent in and I just had no where to go and I couldn't deal with it. The boys got into a fight on the bus which made things worse and I panicked straight away. I hate fights and since Toby I've been...

i confessed my love yesterday...

i've been lamenting over how to tell him, i'm going to call him adina, that i love him.   last night we were drinking beers and smoking cigars on the deck of my apartment. it's right outside my bedroom. you come in via the front door and walk...

fucking IN LOVE

i'm in love guys. its the simplest treasure in the whole universe. love. whether it be romantic or platonic or the other billions of kinds. im in love. and its just fucking great.   it feels wonderful and new even though i have loved so much...

12/7/14

i'm excited to get paid from work on friday so i can buy liquor.  lol because i keep thinking "my life would be so much better right now if i was drunk out of my mind with him" oh well. that's a whole 5 days away so i'd better enjoy sobriety...

Just the Beginning

This could be the start of a beatiful thing or this could just go down in flames but either way I'm going to give it a try. I've recently decided to try this stay at home mommy and wife thing. So far I'm enjoying it but gotta be honest I'm getting...

Boys.

Why is it that boys feel the need to make fun of girls? An ex-boyfriend of mine constantly insults me, huniliates me, embarasses me and basically makes me feel the size of an ant. He has a girlfriend. So why does he continously do this? It doesn't...