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Bones Shaking

Alright, it took me a couple of days, but I think now I can tell you.    Monday morning, I text Carson that I didn't want him to come, that I knew he was going to lie to me anyway. He didn't respond back, which I also expected, but I'm happy...

Wipe your eyes and put up your head.

I had a meltdown at school yesterday, my mentor wasent in and I just had no where to go and I couldn't deal with it. The boys got into a fight on the bus which made things worse and I panicked straight away. I hate fights and since Toby I've been...

i confessed my love yesterday...

i've been lamenting over how to tell him, i'm going to call him adina, that i love him.   last night we were drinking beers and smoking cigars on the deck of my apartment. it's right outside my bedroom. you come in via the front door and walk...

fucking IN LOVE

i'm in love guys. its the simplest treasure in the whole universe. love. whether it be romantic or platonic or the other billions of kinds. im in love. and its just fucking great.   it feels wonderful and new even though i have loved so much...

12/7/14

i'm excited to get paid from work on friday so i can buy liquor.  lol because i keep thinking "my life would be so much better right now if i was drunk out of my mind with him" oh well. that's a whole 5 days away so i'd better enjoy sobriety...

Just the Beginning

This could be the start of a beatiful thing or this could just go down in flames but either way I'm going to give it a try. I've recently decided to try this stay at home mommy and wife thing. So far I'm enjoying it but gotta be honest I'm getting...

Boys.

Why is it that boys feel the need to make fun of girls? An ex-boyfriend of mine constantly insults me, huniliates me, embarasses me and basically makes me feel the size of an ant. He has a girlfriend. So why does he continously do this? It doesn't...

The Single Girl's To Do List Day 9+

First of all, I would like to apologise for not blogging for a while. Things have been completely mental at school with coursework deadlines etc.  I took part in school cross country and that was a mistake, running will not be my new exercise. I...

What Do I Do?

I made a post a little while ago called "Boy Crazy," and well I'm seeing the sporty guy. Let's call him J. J and I met through facebook. I was a dumbass and added him and we arted talking and we have seen each other almost everyday since. We were...

Sight.

I once saw something in you.   Something that hooked me, something that kept me waiting. But now, now my vision has gone foggy.   You once were my light, but now you're so dim. It's as if you now have nothing to offer me, as if now...

Hopefully He Will Change His Ways Eventually

  December 13, 2013   My nine year old nephew was talking to me about his troubles at school the other day… he told me that he was playing with a couple of boys and a some girls wanted to join in the fun… that didn’t go over very well with...

Words are our weapons.

They have left a bitter taste in my mouth. I sit with the boys on the bus to and from school and I guess I'm considered to be "one of them" a lot of the time as they all come to me for advice and also have all their "guy talk" while I'm there. In a...

i sent a boy a...

i want to say i was bout 15 or 16. i liked this boy (let's call him falcon) & he liked me. very sweet boy, gentlemen, & funny. so i thought he was those things. we got to the point where we were talking so much that we started txting each...

The Single Girl's To Do List Day 2&3

Today and yesterday have just been busy days at school if i'm honest. But like why do boys decide it's ok to break up with you and then act like they hate you? seriously it's like i've done something awful to my ex. I mean today in english, i...

Everything I loved was everything I lost.

I haven't written about him in such a long time, I've been trying to forget about James, I don't want to remember because if I remember I will break. I feel so alone and no one cares.. They all just say "well he was an arsehole anyway.." That does not...

I'm still into you

After all this time I don't know why I still want you, but I do. I like the way you made me feel.  I like the way you held me close.  I like the way you distracted me from everything else. The only problem is you don't like me, not at all and it seems...

the pure utter embarrassment.

I've been talking to this guy for a couple months now; He seemed like an honest guy, no game playing nothing. I started to like this guy.  HONEST PART:  I met him of a website called Plenty of Fish, and yep I know I really shouldn't have any...

I don't even know...

I wish I knew how to feel, but I don't.   I feel so betrayed, so used, so led on.   I can't even stand the thought of you right now, everything about you makes me so furious I could scream.   My friends were right, they said I was...

The Friend Zone

Dear Reader, Today we had a two hour delay for school on account of the fog. Which meant my mom would not have been able go to take me to school as usual. Which meant I would have to ride the bus, and it wasn't an option. I texted Jenna and asked...

cycle of bad luck with boys

hey there, thought I'd give a wee update of my life since it's been a little while since I last posted. An update on my last blog: Q eventually confessed his feelings to me. I didn't know what to say because It's a conversation I'd rather have in...

Day seven

Day seven: I don't mean to come off as vain or even sound vain, but am I really that desirable as a person? Well, my exes think so. My ex from Scotland messaged me today and asked if things were good reguarding my boyfriend. When I said yes and asked...

Boy Crazyyyy

Okay, so literally all my "relationships" in the past two years have been online or over the text message. Well I'm in college now so I've got lots of options right? WRONG! The ratio of males to females is 4 to 1. I have a crush on two people. One is...